I hit a wall today.

Not literally but psychologically. I was at the gym doing the 10th week of P90x Back and Biceps. I was about half way done and up to that point, pounding out the reps and weight pretty good. My first set of pull-ups yielded me 20 consecutive pulls. Then it hit me. A total lack of motivation to continue with the program. I went to do another type of pull-up and I couldn’t even manage one. I knew at that point I was done.

I have completed this program so many times before that I know it inside and out. I know the moves, I know the Tony jokes. I know it all. I just couldn’t handle it anymore. So I switched it off, put on some music, and started to do my own thing.

My enthusiasm picked up, the weight increased and I was again able to do my pull-ups. I left the gym feeling that I had actually accomplished something and that felt good.

I only have 2 and a half more weeks left of P90x but I am not sure how much more I can do. I am eager to swim, bike, run, and lift heavy stuff to the beat of my own drum. I miss working out with music and the motivation it provides.

Tomorrow is Yoga but I make skip it and swim instead. We shall see what that provides.